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Showing posts with label mommy. Show all posts

A Birthday Letter to My Dearest


Two years ago today, my husband and I were given the very best blessing we could have ever prayed for. On December 2, 2011 at 11:01 am, we welcomed a little 6lb 11oz baby boy into this world. That sweet bundle of love has changed our lives forever.
Before I became a mother, I thought I knew what love was, I thought I learned to be selfless and I thought I knew what made me happy. 

Dearest Levi, 
When my eyes first met yours, my heart became bigger, my smile wider, my hugs tighter and my tears heavier. You have brought so much joy to my life and I thank Jesus every day for you, including every night as you fall asleep as daddy and I sing "Jesus Loves You".
Although I get tired and worn out much sooner than you do, I am thankful for your endless creativity and bounds of energy. If only I could bottle up just a bit of your endurance and fearlessness, we could soar to the moon and back. 
My hope for you is that you will follow the path that the Lord has set for you, you won't let any fears overcome your purpose, you will love big and you will hold tight to your creative imagination. You are so incredibly smart little one. You will do amazing things!
It has been 2 years of being a mommy to you and I couldn't imagine life without you. You have taught me so much more than I could have ever dreamed and you helped make me a better person. I am eternally grateful.
You will forever be my baby.
I love you so SO much!!
Happy birthday bug!!
Love, 
Mommy

P.S. When you wake up from your nap in a few minutes we will be going to pick out a fish for your birthday gift. You are infatuated with them and today, you will have your very own "fishy". <3

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Emotional New Beginnings

As the leaves change this fall season, so brings a new transition to my little family. A couple weeks ago, we closed escrow and received keys to our new and first home that we can call ours. After 3 years of living in a home that we have been renting, it was time to start a new chapter in our lives.

We are so thankful to have lived in our little home for the time that we did and have so many memories tied to that house on Poplar street. From moving in once my husband and I said "I Do," to bringing our little man home to his first bedroom, it housed a lot of important "firsts" for us.

The last day of packing and moving, I went into the empty blue room where 2 years ago, my husband was putting together Levi's crib as I supervised with a large pregnant belly-the room that housed many of Levi's coos, giggles, tears and smiles. I laid on that bare carpet with my baby boy by my side and stared up into the ceiling. As Levi took his last nap in the room we first brought him home to, I cried.
I couldn't help but feel like I was losing something. As I was packing up my closet, cleaning the bathrooms and walking through the house with bare walls, I was reminded of all the great moments and all the blessings we have been given.

As I was driving away and into the new town we now call home, I cried some more. I felt like I was leaving family and leaving a piece of myself some place else. Truth is, this move was a lot harder than I ever thought it would be (even if we were moving only a half hour away). I wasn't prepared for the rush of emotions that overwhelmed me but with new beginnings come new memories and I'm so excited! 

As we are settling into our new home, I am loving it more and more as the days pass. I am happy where we are and can't wait to see what's in store for us! We have experienced joy even amongst the stresses of moving. Although the workload seems intolerable at times, there is light at the end of the tunnel and it's within reach. This house is turning into a home-our home-each and every day.

As of now, we are just about done organizing. It's really coming down to finishing up with paint and decor-which I am having a really hard time making decisions on...especially since we are having family over for Thanksgiving and I want the house to at least be "decent" and still feel home-y. It's comin' along.

I will be updating some of the home projects soon but until then, have a beautiful Thanksgiving! 
What are your plans for the holiday?

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Thoughtful Thursday + A Discount Code!!!!

 Chiffon shirt + Skinny Jeans: Forever21 Yellow statement necklace: Lindis Delicate Edge Flats + Cross ring: Rue21

A few thoughts from today:

*How in the world do you dress for sum-fall? It's still way too hot out but I want so badly to dress for fall already and break out the richer colors, comfy cardis and ankle boots! Instead, I will go "simple style" today with a statement necklace (which I LOVE) from Lindis Delicate Edge. Love Sparkle Pretty readers get 20% off your order with the code LSPLOVES20!! Go see her pretty shop here!

*So excited for Disneyland in a couple weeks with other mommy friends. I'm totally not a part of the Disney obsessed but I love a reason to get dressed up and since we are dressing as Disney characters, I might as well have fun with it. Turning myself into Pocahontas for the night. It's time for a Pow Wow!

*It's back to square one with house hunting. A few nights ago, we backed out of escrow from the house we put an offer in. Honestly, I'm relieved after finding so many repairs that need to be done during the home inspection. I just don't want to sign a billion more papers!

*I need to take more power naps. Enough said.

*After breaking down at women's bible study today, I thought about the fruits of my labor being put into my sweet, ever growing son. I broke down because while there were several other women with kids playing in the house, my son seemed to be the only one getting on top of tables, banging on tin toys (loudly), eating other peoples food, hitting others with paint rollers and sticking toys in the toilet. After trying to discipline him over and over and still not getting anywhere with soothing his actions, I took him into the other room, closed the door and sobbed as he looked at me with his compassionate eyes. His strong will is overbearing most days and it certainly doesn't make motherhood easy.
As I think about these past (almost) 2 years of being a mom, it's been a struggle but I know that the fruits of my bearing, the results of my call to motherhood won't be all for nothing. I'm learning everyday and will appreciate every moment-even the hard ones. If you are a mother, remember this and cling to this. Raise your child(ren) in the way they should go and let God handle the rest.

What has been on your mind today?

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A bed jumping, box climbing, string cheese in carpet-kind of playdate.

Lately, I've had a whirlwind of choas with things to do-especially with this whole buying a house business. It was time for some mommy talk and a play date. 

Here's how it went.

Cracker crumbs. Bed jumping. Outside voices. Kisses. String cheese in carpet. Slide sliding. Box climbing. Tears. Laughter. Movie watching. Blue sunglasses. Gulps from sippies. Sharing and the lack of. Diaper changes. Hugs. Blanket sucking. Silly faces. Big messes. Happy children.

CRAZY. LOVE.

Here's just a teeny-tiny-itty-bitty peek of the afternoon.

It was such a good day to have some mommy time and see our little ones interact with one another. It has been a while since all 3 of them have had a play date but they have been little besties since birth. 
Here are the babes about a year ago. This makes my heart happy. :) Levi looks like a little yoda...LOL


Here's to motherhood and crazy, energetic, curious, loud, beautiful and healthy babies.

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Gratitude {A difficult reflection of motherhood + healing wounds}

There is always something to be grateful for but lately, I have been feeling even more thankful than usual. It started with something that Brant Hansen said one day on Air1. He was talking about that article that was just published about children costing a crazy amount of money and how much of a cost "burden" they can be.Brant gave a quote from Justin Guarini about this same topic that actually put tears in my eyes. He said, 

"There was a time when I could have thrown down cash for a house, and had any number of lovers in and out the door. A flashy car and clothes to match. An ego to trump them all.
Now, I rent a home filled with love. I have a wife whom I love and who loves me (me!) and who lifts me up. Children who give me cherubic-lipped kisses before I leave for work and who are the most delicious morsels of joy and peace and prosperity.
I am a pretty wealthy individual. 
And then this, his best line:
I have more riches than I can count. Most of them come in the form of smiles and drool... but they make me feel like a gazillionaire."

When he said this, I felt a little guilty because at times, I feel like I don't appreciate how much of a blessing my son is. Sometimes, I get so overwhelmed with his energizer bunny, bouncing off walls, jumping off tables, throwing things behavior. I felt guilty for the times I've said "I need a break" or "this is so much harder than I ever thought."

He is well, he is alive, he is curious, he is unique and he is unbelievably precious and loved in not only mine and my husband's eyes but the Lord's eyes as well.

I would never change what God has blessed me with and I am SO thankful for the life I've been given-including our little lover-everything about him. Yes, sometimes I may feel as if I "need a break" from the messes of smeared fruit snacks in the carpet, the brief heart attacks from watching my son get on tables to try and jump off and the constant discipline to get him to stop putting random things in the outlets.

This is life and it's filled with lots of kisses until bellies start hurting from laughter, hugs that squeeze tightly, hands that tangle up and "I Love You"s to last a lifetime yet can't ever be said enough. I would never trade any of this for the world and I'm thankful to have reflected due to a couple minutes listening to the radio.

Think this post stops there? Not entirely.

A few days ago, I was also attacked by a few large dogs. I don't really want to get too much into it because I don't want to think about the details but I can honestly find ENORMOUS gratitude in that situation as well. I could have had my son with me, I could have had my face severely wounded or even organs punctured BUT even in that moment, I was being protected.

My side has bite marks, I have a very small gash on my head and a couple deep punctures in my right arm. My arm got the worst of it but my physical wounds are definitely healing quickly with lots of prayers from family and friends. My emotional wounds will certainly take longer though. Today, I saw my neighbors small dog wondering into our yard and my heart stopped. I turned around to walk into the house praying the dog wouldn't follow me and I shut the door as quickly as possible.

Yet through this, I have so much more to be grateful for because I am well and I am able to be at home with my family.

This is what I will dwell on.
Thank you Lord!

What are you thankful for lately?

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A delicious Mother's Day and a grocery store tantrum

Ok, so I know that in yesterday's personal post I said that my next post would be all about the Elevate blog conference I attended on Saturday buuutt I'm waiting on some of the photos to be available to share. With that said, this post is about my recent Mother's Day and shopping shenanigans with my son today.

For starters, yesterday was a pretty amazing Mother's Day starting off a smiling baby boy, happy husband and a "build your own waffle" breakfast at my mother in law's house.

I seriously pigged out on all the DELICIOUS food that morning! Thank you awesome cooks. :D

Afterwards, I gave my grandma the corsage I made in floral design class last week. She's the best grandma I could ever ask for. She's one of my greatest inspirations!

My little family and I then headed home for a little afternoon nap (much needed after all those carbs-although running would have been better lol).

We then headed to my mom's house to give her some PRETTY hydrangea flowers and delish ice cream bars. Have you heard of the Magnum double caramel bars? Those are YUMMY and went to my wonderful momma who I adore oh so much. :)

THEN, we headed to Mimi's Cafe for lunch to celebrate my sister in law's birthday who was actually our waitress as well. We don't get to see her too often because she's such a hard worker (she works 2 jobs pretty much full time) so it's great when we do! Of course half way through lunch Levi got antsy so we took him outside to walk around. Once he saw a little girl with a balloon though, he went NUTS! 

I don't know what it is about balloons and my 16 month old son but he's obsessed OBSESSED with them! When he saw the little girl with one, he started screaming and even pulled my hair to get down and run over to the floating blue balloon. It was a bit much but after putting him in his car seat and giving him his sippy cup, he was fine and looked at us innocently with his adorable big brown eyes.

Target was our next destination where we picked up some board games and my husband and I played Battle of the Sexes the rest of the night after I finished my super intricate and time consuming craft from Elevate.
The Battle of the Sexes game we played made us laugh so much and we learned something new about each other because of it (it would be a great "date night" game to play too). Of course he won because I knew nothing about sports, fishing or that the word "TILT" appears on a pin ball machine when you manhandle the game. Ha! 
It was such a fun day turned night and so nice to spend it with family.

Now, in light of the Mother's Day timeline, I want to share another story which happened today between a mother and a son. Remember when I said my son is obsessed with balloons? Well today, I was the mother with the baby throwing a massive tantrum in the middle of the store over a balloon! Ha!

This is reality my friends.

I remember looking at mom's with the screaming kids thinking that my kid(s) will never do that. Lo and behold, that was me a couple hours ago.

Once Levi saw the balloons near the checkout lines, he started yelling which turned into crying, pointing and trying to get out of the cart. I usually won't get him a balloon thinking that I don't want to feed into the whining but this time I did because I was with a good friend and her two kids and her son wanted one (mind you-they were both silent). I thought everything would be fine now that he had his own balloon so I tied it to the front of the cart to keep it from floating away. This was a mistake on my part because the tantrum increased from pointing and whining to now throwing his head back and forth in the cart because the balloon was tied to the cart and not being held freely in his hand. When he tried to pull the string and noticed that he couldn't hold it on his own-he was so upset!

You know what happened next? We left the store. That was that.

The terrible twos is a lie in our scenario seeing how those tantrums have started much sooner.

Thank you Jesus for a healthy baby boy though. Even when it's hard, I'm grateful that at the end of the day I have a son who I can cuddle with to sooth those tantrums away.

Happy belated Mother's Day!

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Some {GOOD} finds + more boutonnieres

This morning, I just wanted to share a few things that I stumbled upon the past few days. They are some really good reads and I know you will enjoy them as well! :)
First, I was sent this beautiful...& FUNNY list:
25 things I want my son to know
It is absolutely a must read for mommies! Especially if you have a little boy...or several little boys. lol
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Next, anyone a Starbucks fan??
I found this little ode to a good Starbucks outing from Profiles of a Papergirl.
It's called, none other than:
Starbucks Love.
READ!
& follow this blog! She (Sarah)is an amazing writer!
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& last but certainly not least, there is a fun little giveaway going on over at The Official Blog of Elisha. Be sure to check it out! There's lots of vintage-inspired necklaces to be won! :)

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Now, for the rest of the day...
I am just about done with another boutonniere order (2 pieces are missing from the photo). I will be finishing up and shipping it out to San Diego on Monday :)

{Have a Beautiful Weekend!}

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